It's been a so-so week. not much has happened except that now it's the beginning of my April break. Thank goodness. For some reason it doesn't feel like break to me. It's like when Chrstmas time comes around but it doesn't really feel like christmas except that every radio station is playing some type of christmas carol. It's kinda bumming me out that it doesn't feel like break because I could really use a nice break right now. I know what you're probably thinking, how could she have a break but still feel like she needs a break? Like I'm on break from school but it doesn't actually feel like I'm on a break from anything. I still have some of the same shit going on that's outside of school so really I'm still stuck with all this crap to take care of. Does that make any sense? Oh well. Maybe I'm bummed for a different reason...
Do you ever feel like you're working towards something that you know will never happen? It feels like that with me right now, and it's not just with one thing. It's with a few things. I don't know what to do about it because it's more of how I feel about things and I know that I'm not going to change how I feel but at the same time, I know that I'm not going to be able to do some of the things that have been on my mind. :-/ Maybe I should stop talking about this because I bet it's confusing the hell out of whoever is reading this. If it's really that important to you then maybe I'll let you in on what's going on sometime....probably not though so don't get your hopes up.
Other than all of this crap, not a whole lot has been going on. School's ok and so is track but they're not that important to me so does it really matter how they're going? No.
No one's home right now so I'm pretty bored and I have to tape the Spprentice for my mom cuz she won't be able to see it. Doesn't my night sound amazingly fun. I wish I could go to Nick's but I would have no way of getting there and home so I'm stuck here all night...


peace out,

rita