Today is day two of mine and Tom's diets.  We're going on a cruise to the Eastern Carribbean in April and both of us really want to lose weight before we go.  I especially would like to get rid of some of the weight that I've gained since we moved in but I don't know if I'll be able to.  It's not that I don't have the state of mind for it or the means, it's just that it's easier when you have someone to help you along the way. And even though Tom is technically going on a diet too it's not the same because he's at work all day, plus on top of that it'll probably be easier for him to lose the weight he wants just because he's a guy. So then I'm stuck with someone who's going to have it easy and he won't understand that it's harder for me.

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Ok so I wrote that top part about half an hour ago.  I figured that I could take a break and call my mom to wish her a happy birthday and when I called her we got to talking about filing taxes this coming year and it made me start wondering about some stuff. So I decided to talk to Tom online and tell him that I didn't know if I had to file and I didn't know if he could claim me.  I figured that while I was looking stuff up he could call my mom and wish her a happy birthday cuz I know she'd appreciate that.  Well after a little bit of looking through the website that I was on I decided to ask him if he called....and he didn't.  So that kind of upset me because I always make time for his family, and not saying that he doesn't put time towards my family but it wouldn't have been to hard to give a quick call and say happy birthday. I would have done it if he had asked me. So then I was a little frustrated and I was looking stuff up online and trying to get the answers to my questions and then making sure that I could give the right answer to Tom and then I couldn't find something through the site.  I decided to call the number that they give if you need help with something.  Well I told him that I was on hold and I was on hold for about 12 minutes when he comes back to the conversation we were having online and he tells me that he found out what I was trying to find.  And I know this is going to sound stupid but that kind of pissed me off because he knew that I was on hold and that I was trying to find things out and when he did that it was like it was pointless for me to be waiting on hold.  And then it made me more mad because I started thinking "well how does that work?  He can't call my mother to wish her a happy birthday but he can do something that I was already trying to do..."  Sometimes I get frustrated because it feels like he doesn't let me try to do things on my own.  And it's hard to get upset about it because it's not that he thinks I can't do it, it's just that he wants to be able to do everything for me because he cares about me. How can you get mad at someone who just wants to help you. But I can't sit around all day and let him do everything for me because then it's like my already boring life is made more boring because I don't have to do anything....I don't know if that makes any sense but that's how it feels.

Ok well it's almost one o'clock and I have a date with Days Of Our Lives....I'll have a post about soap operas later tonight.

peaceoutgirlscout,

Senorita Rita